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  "I'd like to show you some identification."

  "What is this about?"

  He held up his shield. "John Leland Ransome."

  She dropped a three-pronged tool from her right hand onto the bench and leaned against it as if suddenly at a loss for breath. Her back was to Peter. A dry scuttle of leaves on the overhead glass cast a kaleidoscope of shadow in the greenhouse. He wiped mist from his forehead and continued toward her.

  'You posed for Ransome."

  "What of it? Who told you that?"

  "He did."

  She'd been rigidly still; now Anne Van Lier seemed pleasurably agitated.

  'You know John? You've seen him?"

  'Yes."

  "When?"

  "A couple of months ago." Peter had closed the distance between them. Anne darted another look his way, a gloved hand covering her profile as if she were a bashful child; but she no longer appeared to be concerned about him.

  "How is John?" Her voice was suddenly rich with emotion. "Did he—mention me?"

  "That he did," Peter said reassuringly, and dared to ask, "Are you still in love with Ransome?"

  She shuddered, protecting herself with the glove as if he'd thrown a stone, seeming to cower.

  "What did John say about me? Please."

  Knowing he'd touched a nerve, Peter said soothingly, "Told me the year he spent with you was one of the happiest of his life."

  Still it bothered him when, after a few moments, she began softly to weep. He moved closer to Anne, put a hand on her arm.

  "Don't," she pleaded. "Just go."

  "How long since you seen him last, Anne?"

  "Eighteen years," she said despondently.

  "He also said—it was his understanding that you were very happy."

  Anne Van Lier gasped. Then she began shaking with laughter, as if at the cruelest joke she'd ever heard.

  She turned suddenly to Peter, knocking his hand away from her, snatching off her gardening hat as she stared up at him.

  The shock she gave him was like the electric jolt from a hard jab to the solar plexus. Because her once-lovely face was a horror.

  She had been brutally, deeply slashed. Attempts had been made to correct the damage, but plastic surgeons could do only so much. Repairing damage to severed nerves was beyond any surgeon's skill. Her mouth drooped on one side. She had lost the sight of her left eye, filled now with a bloom of suffering.

  "Who did this to you? Was it Ransome?"

  Jarred by the blurted question, she backed away from Peter.

  "What? John? How dare you think that!"

  Gloved fingers prowled the deep disfiguring lines on her face.

  "I never saw my attacker. It happened on a street in the East Village. He could have been a mugger. I didn't resist him, so why, why?"

  "The police—"

  "Never found him." She stared at Peter, and through him, at the past. "Or is that what you've come to tell me?"

  "No. I don't know anything about the case. I'm sorry."

  "Oh. Well." Her fate was dead weight on her mind. "So many years ago."

  She put her gardening hat back on, adjusted the brim, gave Peter a vague look. She was in the past again.

  'You can tell John—I won't always look like this. Just one more operation, they promised. I've had ten so far. Then I'll—finally be ready for John." She anticipated the question Peter wasn't about to ask. "To pose again!" A vaguely flirtatious smile came and went. "Otherwise I've kept myself up, you know. I do my exercises. Tell John—I bless him for his patience, but it won't be much longer."

  In spite of the humidity and the drifting spray in the greenhouse Peter's throat was dry. His own attempt at a smile felt like hardening plaster on his face. He knew he had only glimpsed the depths of her psychosis. The decent thing to do now was to leave her with some assurance that her fantasy would be fulfilled.

  "I'll tell him, Miss Van Lier. That's the news he's been waiting for."

  The following Saturday night Peter was playing pool with his old man at the Knights of Columbus, and letting Corin win. The way he used to let him win at Horse when Corin was still spry enough for some basketball: Just a little off my game tonight, Pete would always say, pretending annoyance. Corin bought the beers afterward and they relaxed in a booth at their favorite sports bar.

  "Heard you was into the cold case files in the Ninth," Corin said, wiping some foam off his mustache.

  He looked at one of the big screens around the room. The Knicks were at the Heat, and tonight they couldn't throw one in the ocean.

  "You hear everything, Pop," Pete said admiringly.

  "In my borough. What's up?"

  "just something I got interested in, I had a little spare time." He explained about the Van Lier slashing.

  "How many times was she cut?"

  "Ten slashes, all on her face. He just kept cutting on her, even after she was down. That sound like all he wanted was a purse?"

  "No. Leaves three possibilities. A psycho, hated women. Or an old boyfriend she gave the heave-ho to, his ego couldn't take it. But you said the vic didn't make him."

  "No."

  "Then somebody hired it done. Tell me again what your interest is in the vic?"

  "Eighteen, nineteen years ago, she posed for John Ransome."

  Corin rubbed a temple and managed to keep his disapproval muted. "Jeez Marie, Petey."

  "My girl is up mere in Maine with him, Pop!"

  "And you're lettin' your imagination—I see your mind workin'. But it's far-fetched, lad. Far-fetched."

  "I suppose so," Peter mumbled in his beer.

  "How many young women do you think have posed for him in his career?"

  "Seven that anybody knows about. Not counting Echo."

  Corin spread his hands.

  "But nobody knows who they are, or where they are. Almost nobody, it's some kind of secret list. I'm tellin' you, Pop, there is too much about him that don't add up."

  "That's not cop sense, that's your emotions talkin'."

  "Two damn months almost, I don't see her."

  "That was his deal. His and hers, and there's good reasons why Echo did it."

  "Didn't tell you this before. That woman friend of his, whore, whatever: she carries a knife and Echo saw her almost use it on a kid in the subway."

  "Jeez Marie, where's this goin' to end with you?" Corin sat back in the booth and rapped the table once with the knuckles of his right fist. "Tell you where it ends. Right here, tonight. You know why? Too much money, Petey. That's what it's always about."

  "Yeah, I know. I saw the commissioner's head up Ransome's ass."

  "Remember that." He stared at Peter until exasperation softened into forgiveness. "Echo have any problems up there she's told you about?"

  "No," Peter admitted. "Ransome's just doing a lot of sketches of her, and she has time paint. I guess everything's okay." "Give her credit for good sense, then. And do your part."

  "Yeah, I know. Wait." His expression was pure naked longing and remorse. "Two months. And you know what, Pop? It's like one of us died. Only I don't know which one, yet."

  As she had done almost every day since arriving on Kincairn Echo took her breakfast in chilly isolation in a corner of the big kitchen, then walked to the lighthouse. Frequently she could see only a few feet along the path because of fog. But sometimes there was no fog; the air was sharp and windless as the rising sun cast upon the copper face of the sea a great peal of morning.

  She'd learned early on that John Ransome was an insomniac who spent most of the deep night hours reading in his second-floor study or taking long walks by himself in the dark, with only a flashlight along island paths he'd been familiar with since he was a boy.

  Sleep would come easier for him, Ransome assured her, as if apologizing, once he settled down to doing serious painting. But the unfinished portrait he'd begun in New York on a big rectangle of die board had remained untouched on his easel for nearly six weeks while he devoted himself to
making postcard-size sketches of Echo, hundreds of them, or silently observing her own work take shape. Late at night he would leave Post-it Notes of praise or criticism on her easel.

  When they were together he was always cordial but preferred letting Echo carry the conversation. He seemed endlessly curious about her life. About her father, who had been a Jesuit until the age of fifty-one, when he met Rosemay, a Maryknoll nun. He never asked about Peter.

  There were days when Echo didn't see him at all. She felt his absence from the island but had no idea of where he'd gone, or why. Not that it was any of her business. But it wasn't the working relationship she'd bargained for. His inability to resume painting made her uneasy. And it wasn't her nature to put up with being ignored, or feeling slighted, for long.

  "Is it me?" she'd asked him at dinner the night before.

  Her question, the mood of it, startled him.

  "No. Of course not, Mary Catherine." He looked distressed, random gestures substituting for the words he couldn't find to reassure her. "Case of nerves, that's all. It always happens. I'm afraid I'll begin and—then I'll find myself drawing from a dry well." He paused to pour himself more wine. He'd been drinking more before and after dinner than was his custom; his aim was a little off and he grimaced. "Afraid that everything I do will be trite and awful."

  Echo had sensed his vulnerability—all artists had it. But she wasn't quite sure how to deal with his confession.

  "You're a great painter."

  Ransome shook his head, shying from the burden of her suggestion.

  "If I ever believe that, then I will be finished." Echo got up, pinched some salt from a silver bowl, and spread it over the wine stain on the fine linen tablecloth. She looked hesitantly at him.

  "How can I help?"

  He was looking at the salted stain. "Does that work?"

  "Usually, if you do it right away."

  "If human stains were so easy to remove," he said with sudden vehemence.

  "God's always listening," she said, then thought it was probably too glib, patronizing, and unsatisfactory.

  She felt God, but she also felt there was little point in trying to explain Him to someone else.

  After a silence the unexpected flood of his passion ebbed.

  "I don't believe as easily as you, Mary Catherine," he said with a tired smile that became tense. "But if we do have your God watching us, then I think it likely that his revenge is to do nothing."

  Ransome pushed his chair back and stood, looked at Echo, put out a hand and lifted her head slightly with thumb and forefinger on her chin. He said, studying her as if for the first time, "The light in your eyes is the light from your heart."

  "That's sweet," Echo said demurely, knowing what was coming next. She'd been thinking about it, and how to handle it, for weeks.

  He kissed her on the forehead, not the lips, as if bestowing a blessing. That was sweet too. But the erotic content, enough to cause her lips to part and put a charge in her heartbeat, took her by surprise.

  "I have to leave the island for a few days," he said then.

  Ransome's studio had replaced the closetlike space that once had held the Kincairn light and reflecting mirror. It sat upon the spindle of the lighthouse shaft like a flying saucer made mostly of glass that was thirty feet in diameter. There was an elevator inside, another addition, but Echo always used the circular stairs coming and going. Ciera was a very good cook and the daily climb helped Echo shed the pounds that had a tendency to creep aboard like hitchhikers on her hips.

  She had decided, because the day was neither blustery enough to blow her off her Vespa nor bitterly cold, to pack up her paints and easel and go cross island for an exercise in plein air painting on the cove and dock.

  Approaching Kincairn village, Echo saw John Ransome at the end of the town dock unmooring a cabin cruiser that had been tied up alongside Wilkins' Marine and the mail/ferry boat slip. She stopped her putter-ing scooter in front of the cottage where a lone priest, elderly and in virtual exile in this most humble of parishes, lived with an equally old housekeeper. Echo had no reason for automatically keeping her distance from Ransome until she also saw Taja at the helm of the cruiser, which wasn't much of a reason either. She hadn't seen the Woman in Black nor given her much thought since the night of the artist's show at Cy Mellichamp's. Ransome never mentioned her. Apparently she seldom visited the island.

  Friend, business associate, confidante? Mistress, of course. But if she kept some distance between them now, perhaps that was in the past. Even if they were no longer lovers Echo assumed she might still be emotionally supportive, a rare welcome visitor to his isolate existence—his stiller doom, Echo thought with a certain poignancy, remembering a phrase of Charlotte Bronte's from Echo's favorite novel, Jane Eyre.

  Watching Ransome jump into the bow of the cruiser, Echo felt frustrated for his sake. Obviously he was not going to be painting anytime soon. She also felt a dim sense of betrayal that made no sense to her. Yet it lingered like the spectral imprint of a kiss that had made her restless during a night of confused, otherworldly dreams; dreams of Ransome, dreams of being as naked in his studio as a snail on a thorn.

  Echo watched Taja back the cruiser from the dock and turn it toward the mainland, pour on the power.

  She decided to take a minute to go into the empty church. Was it time to ring the bell for a confession of her own? She couldn't make up her mind about that, and her heart was no help either.

  Cy Mellichamp was using a phone at a gallery associate's desk in the second-floor office when Peter was brought in by a secretary. Mellichamp glanced at him with no hint of welcome. Two more associates, Mellichamp's morale-boosting term for salespeople, were working the phones and computers. In another large room behind the office paintings were being uncrated.

  Mellichamp smiled grievously at something he was hearing and fidgeted until he had a chance to break in.

  "Really, Allen, I think your affections are misplaced. There is neither accomplishment nor cachet in the accident of Roukema's success. And at six million—no, I don't want to have this conversation. No. The man should be doing frescoes in tombs. You wanted my opinion, which I freely give to you. Okay, please think it over and come to your senses."

  Cy rang off and looked again at Peter, with the fixed smile of a man who wants you to understand he could be doing better things with his time.

  "Why," he asked Peter, "do otherwise bright young people treat inherited fortunes the way rednecks treat junk cars?" He shrugged. "Mr. O'Neill! Delighted to see you again. How can I help you?"

  "Have you heard anything from Mr. Ransome lately?"

  "We had dinner two nights ago at the Four Seasons."

  "Oh, he was in town?" Cy waited for a more sensible question. "His new paintings sell okay?"

  "We did very, very well. And how is Echo?"

  "I don't know. I'm not allowed to see her, I might be a distraction. I thought Ransome was supposed to be slaving away at his art up there in Maine."

  Cy looked at his watch, looked at Peter again uncomprehendingly.

  "I was hoping you could give me some information, Mr. Mellichamp."

  "In regard to?"

  "The other women Ransome has painted. I know where one of them lives. Anne Van Lier." The casual admission was calculated to provoke a reaction; Peter didn't miss the slight tightening of Cy Mellichamp's baby blue eyes. "Do you know how I can get in touch with the others?"

  Cy said after a few moments, "Why should you want to?" with a muted suggestion in his gaze that Peter was up to no good.

  "Do you know who and where those women are?"

  An associate said to Cy, "Princess Steph on three."

  Distracted, Cy looked over his shoulder. "Find out if she's on St. Barts. I'll get right back to her."

  While Cy wasn't watching him Peter glanced at a computer on a nearby desk where nobody was working. But the person whose desk it was had carelessly left his user ID on the screen.

  Cy
looked around at Peter again. "I could not help you if I did know," he said curtly. "Their whereabouts are none of my business."

  "Why is Ransome so secretive about those women?"

  "That, of course, is John's prerogative. Now if you wouldn't mind—it has been one of those days—" He summoned a moment of the old charm. "I'm sorry."

  "Thanks for taking the time to see me, Mr. Mellichamp."

  "If there should be a next time, unless it happens to be official, you would do well to leave that gold shield in your pocket."

  EIGHT

  Peter got home from his watch at twenty past midnight. He fixed himself a sardine sandwich on sourdough with a smelly slice of gouda and some salsa dip he found in the fridge. He carried the sandwich and a bottle of Sam Adams up the creaky back stairs to the third floor he shared with his brother Casey. The rest of the house was quiet except for his father's distant whistling snore. But with no school for two days Case was still up with his iMac. Graphics were Casey's passion: his ambition was to design the cars of the future.

  Peter changed into sweats. The third floor was drafty; a wind laced with the first fitful snow of the season was belting them.

  There was an e-mail on the screen of his laptop that said only missyoumissyoumissyou. He smiled bleakly, took a couple of twenties from his wallet and walked through the bathroom he shared with Casey, pausing to kick a wadded towel off the floor in the direction of the hamper.

  "Hi, Case."

  Casey, mildly annoyed at the intrusion, didn't look around.

  "That looks like the Batmobile," Peter said of the sleek racing machine Casey was refining with the help of some Mac software.

  "It is the Batmobile."

  Peter laid a twenty on the desk where Casey would see it out of the corner of his eye.

  "What's that for?"

  "For helping me out."

  "Doing what?"

  "See, I've got this user ID, but there's probably gonna be a log-on code too—"

  "Hack a system?"

  "I'm not stealing anything. Just want to look at some names, addresses."

  "It's against the law."

  Peter laid the second twenty on top of the first.

  "Way I see it, it's kind of a gray area. There's something going on, maybe involves Echo, I need to know about. Right away."